Thursday, December 15, 2011

The Season of Want

My youngest daughter, updated her Christmas list - decorated and glittered and hanging on the fridge - the other day. There, at the very bottom and written in pencil so it kind of blended with the red construction paper, she'd written:
"For my daddy to get a job"

Yes, I got all blurry-eyed and felt that Grinch-heart expansion that stole my breath and made me have to hold up the fridge a few minutes. And yes, my biggest want this Christmas season - even with a book on submission - is for my husband to land a job. We'll be fine, we're fortunate I'm working. His going through this has been tough because I can't fix it, can't even attempt to fix it. And he's excellent at what he does and is a hard worker and SO didn't deserve to be caught without a chair when the music stopped. The Mom part of me knows it's life and life's not always fair, just like I've had so many talented writer friends passed up by agents and publishers and reviews. It happens. (Insert boo-hiss here!)

But the re-org which organized him out of a job has been a blessing in disguise. It's made us ask hard questions like:
How do I want to live?
What's most important?
Am I doing what I LOVE?

This same line of questions pack the same punch when you turn them to writing. Especially the last question, in this season on want. Are you writing what you love to read? Are you writing a story you love or writing a story you think you should be writing? It's the details we ignore until we have to which seem to make us grow the most. And like any other type of growing, there are periods where some sort of pain is involved...but in the end, things are better, bigger or even both :D


  1. I went though the same thing a few years ago, but in my case I wanted to leave. The job was killing my family and my marriage. I couldn't take it anymore. I was going to quit a few months later, but this way I still got my bonus (which I wouldn't have gotten had I quit) and a package. My coworkers were shocked. They had been trying to convince me not to quit.

    I definitely believe it's important to write the story you want to write. Especially since there are no guarantees in this business.

  2. @Stina Lindenblatt
    Very smart move for you all around, especially being able to see how it was affecting the important things like family and marriage (because sometimes it's not easy to see).

    Amen to no guarantees! It's a crazy-subjective business!